yanderebitchclub | ( catchall ) even now i still dream of you

[Every so often, a mortal comes into Sandalphon's life that makes even his long-since stopped heart flutter for a bit. Short-lived as they are, it's always a recipe for disaster, but he can't help but want them anyway—and more often than not, he can't help but pursue them. The fact of the matter is he rarely, if ever, means harm when he does; vampires get lonely too, lonelier than a human can comprehend, and staving it is no easy task.

...But vampires get hungry, too. And it's been a long while since he's last sated himself. It used to be easier, back when things like forensic investigation didn't exist and the population was denser, but it's been getting harder and harder to eat over the past two centuries or so.

And Izumi, the mortal he's recently become so enamored of, has just arrived at the meeting spot for their date, glaring at his fingertip, and asked him if he has a bandage.

Just the whiff of human blood, especially from someone he's come to fancy over the past months, is enough to set Sandalphon's mouth watering. Moreover, of course he doesn't have any—but the two of them are going shopping, so surely a store nearby must have them, right?

Sandalphon takes a few shaky steps in the direction of a pharmacy he happens to know is nearby, rapidly regaining his composure but still looking slightly pale.]

...Follow me, there's a place we can get some. I'll buy them for you, so...

[It'd be wiser to ask him to stay here, but there's no way he'd agree to being left alone right after arriving for a date...]

[ izumi had had a feeling about sandalphon for a while now, but he can't really put a finger on it. sure, the man is practically a night owl, but izumi can chalk it up with his apparent coffee addiction. and sure, maybe he's not a huge fan of hoodies unlike his boyfriend who practically wears that and only that.

and sure, maybe he looks a little too pale, feels a little too cold to the touch - but izumi could be reading into it a bit much. so what if sandalphon's weird? it don't matter, so long as he's hot and can treat him right all the time. at least he's strong enough to carry multiple shopping bags, a boon izumi's going to take advantage of right now. ]

You can just go ahead and buy some, you know. No need to tag me around like I'm your mom or something.

[ but he lets sandalphon drag him around regardless, cherishing the way their hands fit each other. but he can't really ignore how pale sandalphon looks all of a sudden. ]

If you're that scared of blood, I can do it myself. It's not like I can die from a shitty papercut.

[im crying when he lists it all together like this he's an idiot for not realizing]

I...don't want to leave you alone on a date...

[He's a bit standoffish, but not THAT standoffish! Though it might be hard to tell from how distant he seems at the moment, like his mind's completely elsewhere. Izumi's diet and exercise regimen are perfect, so he'd probably be delicious...he certainly smells like it...it'd be enough to get Sandalphon drooling even if he wasn't as hungry as he is. Eating human food as a stopgap has been working well enough, but it's gradually becoming less and less feasible of an option as his body runs low on the stockpiles of energy he has from his last feeding.

...Wouldn't it be easy enough to just drag him down a street, press him against the side of a building away from prying eyes, and sink his teeth into that perfect, milky white throat?]

...Gh...

[Thinking about that was a mistake.]

...You should put something over it...a napkin, maybe. Cover it until we can treat it properly.

[Anything at all to make the smell less strong.]

[ look sandy's just hot and caring in his own way that izumi's willing to overlook all that other shit............ for the most part, ]

Fine, fine, I'll wrap it in a handkerchief and put it in my pocket for the entire duration of our date. Can we please start holding hands now?

[ PLEASE his other hand's so lonely... without his boyfriend's own hand...... he's not even going to wait for sandalphon to respond. he immediately grabs for it, smiling cheekily like he's very proud of himself.

and of course he's going to put his injured hand in his pocket for the time being. he's blissfully unaware of the anguish and hunger sandalphon's going through right now, and their close proximity is making it worse. it just had to be now of all times that izumi's choosing to be a bit clingier than usual. ]

Now, then! Where do we go first?

[The relief Sandalphon feels when Izumi temporarily wraps his hand is palpable. Those hunger pains are still there, but the smell of blood has been dampened enough that it should be manageable for the time being.

He gives Izumi's hand a squeeze, though his own hand is shaking a bit from restraint.]

You mentioned that there was a brand launching a new line this week, right? I looked into it, and this store said they've got the new stuff in...

[He points to a nearby S*phora.]

That face cream you're almost out of, right? I'll buy some for you.

[And hopefully the highly-chemical smell of the makeup store or any free samples Izumi might apply will help dampen the lingering smell of blood. He doesn't really wait for Izumi to respond so much as he starts gently leading him along; Izumi likes it when he's more confident, so hesitating and waiting for his approval might be the wrong move here.]

...How have you been? I'm sorry I had to cancel last time. I wasn't feeling well.

[Though honestly he doesn't look especially healthy right now, either. But it's true—he's had to conserve his energy more often lately.]

Edited 2021-05-16 21:27 (UTC)

[ it's true, izumi always likes it when sandalphon takes the lead --

but izumi can't help but give his boyfriend a glance as they make their way down the shopping district. sandalphon does look rather pale lately, come to think of it, and izumi just assumed that he's still recovering from a nasty fever, but... ]

I'd say it's all right, but obviously it's not. You're totally not doing fine, so I don't even know why you asked me out in the first place when you can just invite me to your place.

[ for some fresh air, maybe? ]

That said, my face cream is almost out, so... thanks. For remembering. [ he smiles a little. ] And after that we can go back to your place and I can cook for you there! How does that sound? My cooking's a lot better than most restaurants anyway, wouldn't you agree?

[He should say no. Izumi's safer in public. If they go back to Sandalphon's place, he can't trust himself. What if he bites him? What if this hunger finally becomes too unbearable?

He should say no. He should say no. He needs to say—]

...That sounds nice. I always love your cooking...it really is the best I've ever had.

[That's not even an exaggeration. Izumi's a great cook, though it's not the taste of his cooking that Sandalphon's thinking about right now. If he slips up, accidentally nicks his hand, would just being able to suck on that help this hunger of his...?

His head clears up briefly when they enter the makeup shop, but he's already agreed and the last thing he wants to do is make Izumi have to change his plans after he's been nice enough to change them once already, so he'll simply have to be more careful for the rest of the day. He manages to get a bandage from an employee, too, which he hands to Izumi for his finger.

On the way back to Sandalphon's place, he holds tight to Izumi's hand. This situation is getting untenable. If Izumi finds out what he is, he'll be frightened...but he can't help but want to indulge in this relationship for as long as he can.]

I just went grocery shopping the other day, so you should have a good range of options to choose from. Oh, but there's a lot of meat, so make sure to wear gloves over that cut of yours.

[Consuming rare meat is the best way to get a little bit of energy back by eating human food. Drinking from an animal would be better, but the common animals of the city, pigeons and the like, have so little blood it'd require a large number of them, and Sandalphon's got principles—he won't go after people's pets, even if some dogs would be large enough to get him the blood he needs.

Human blood is the most nutritious, anyway.]

[ izumi's positively sparkling throughout their little shopping date, no thanks to sandalphon's compliment and the amount of makeup he's amassed after making a quick scan of their latest arrivals. he's as ignorant as ever to sandalphon's own anxieties, only gripping his hand just as tightly because he's feeling a lot more affectionate than usual today. how cute. how sweet.

they arrive at sandalphon's abode, and izumi instantly zooms in on his refrigerator to get what he needs while his boyfriend prattles on about kitchen safety. ]

No need to tell me twice. [ he grabs for the pair of kitchen gloves and strapping them on, stretching out his fingers. ] Any requests? I was thinking of a hot soup in case you're still not feeling well, but I'm flexible.

[ just gonna start preparing that rice, while he's at it... ]

[If Izumi didn't know any better he'd swear he was doing this on purpose. Is blood a soup? He's sure there's a YouTube video about this somewhere that's sparked miles' worth of threads of online discourse.

The smell of blood is long gone, but unfortunately, the appealing scent of Izumi himself lingers in the room even after he heads for the kitchen, and Sandalphon can slowly begin to feel himself unhinge. He lurches over, still clearly unwell, and embraces him from behind, burying his face in the side of his neck. Ah, he can feel his pulse from here...]

If it's you...if it's you, it'll taste delicious...

[He's trying to keep up with the conversation, he really is. It's the last thing keeping him tethered.]

[ his breath catches in his throat when sandalphon holds him in his arms from behind, almost dropping whatever he's holding in his hands. he's not gonna lie, the breathy way he said that coupled with this kind of physical intimacy that rarely gets initiated by sandalphon is lowkey turning him on, but this isn't the time for that. his heartrate going up a tick at this sudden gesture certainly isn't helping either. ]

Since when you did you become this clingy?

[ he can't help but tease, one gloved hand going up to ruffle his boyfriend's hair. ]

Just take a bite out of me if you're that hungry, jeez. You won't be getting any food while you're distracting me like this...

[ he's just kidding, mostly. now let go of him before he makes a similar accident in the kitchen. ]

[If Sandalphon still had a heartbeat of his own, it'd be pounding uncontrollably right now. He feels dizzy, exhilarated, barely managing to wrest his self-control back from the hungry, desperate voice in the back of his head begging him—"you see, it's fine, he said you could take a bite out of him"—he knows that's not what he meant, it can't possibly have been what he meant, but could he really be blamed for it? In the heat of the moment, could he be blamed for sucking this human dry?

He feels himself scraping his teeth against the side of Izumi's neck and reels back, clapping a hand over his mouth. Fortunately, it looks like he managed to regain his senses before he broke the skin, but even so...]

I'm sorry...I...need to—lie down—

[He moves to drag himself out of the room, looking worse by the minute. Leaving won't help, at this point. But it will keep him away from the man he loves too much to feed on.]

[ he lets out a tiny gasp at the teeth on his neck, and it registers in izumi's mind that they do look sharp, come to think of it... still, he's a lot more worried about sandalphon reeling back and staggering out of the room, so of course he's going to trail after him. ]

What's wrong this time, Sanchan...? Are you still that sick? I told you not to force yourself if you're not feeling well, didn't I?

[ stripping off the kitchen gloves, he grabs for sandalphon's hand and leads him back to his bedroom and onto his bed in an attempt to tuck him in. ]

Just tell me what you want and I'll get it for you, all right? Now stop being so annoying and lie down.

[ he lifts a hand and absentmindedly strokes the part of his neck where sandalphon had kissed him. wait, was it really a kiss? for a moment there, it felt like sandalphon really did intend to take a bite out of him... ]

[Sandalphon lets himself be led to bed and even tucked in, but he vehemently shakes his head when Izumi asks what he wants.]

...I...the truth is, I know why I'm sick, but...it's my own fault, I should have taken care of this by now...

[But living such a blissful, "normal" life with Izumi had been so much fun. Combine that with the difficulty vampires have finding a place that isn't being surveilled somehow in the modern era, and it's a recipe for disaster.

There's a twisting, tearing pain in his chest. He's going to have to tell him, and he's going to have to watch the expression on Izumi's face shift to fear, revulsion, disgust—]

It's...I haven't been...eating properly, and...

[He can't say it. He looks up at Izumi, desperation in his eyes, as though he's begging him to say it for him, even though he's not providing nearly enough information for him to catch on—but he's so desperate to not have to say it himself.]

...And now it's...it's too late to do anything about it...I...

[He puts his face in his hands.]

...You...should probably go. I'm sorry. I don't...I can't...

[He can't bear to hurt him.]

[ izumi listens to sandalphon beating around the bush, the truth slowly dawning on him. the cold hands, the immense hunger pangs, the fangs... izumi should've known by now, shouldn't he? look at him claiming to be the smarter of the two of them and only realizing this now.

his boyfriend has always lacked initiative, so izumi has no choice but to step in. he straddles sandalphon on the bed, wrapping his hands around the other man's wrists to pull his hands out of his face, red eyes meeting blue. ]

Sanchan, listen to me. I want you to get well, okay? I just... want to confirm something before we do something we'd both regret.

[ he swallows. ]

You're... You're not human, are you?

[Izumi has come to the correct conclusion, the one that Sandalphon was hoping he'd come to, but he's still miserable about it—he'd been hoping to never have to discuss this, or at least wait until he'd tested the waters a bit more before having the truth come to light.]

...No. I'm not. I'm a vampire.

[He averts his eyes, unable to meet Izumi's steadfast gaze.]

I had been looking for a good time to tell you, I wasn't going to hide it forever. But I didn't want you to be afraid of me...no, maybe it's more accurate to say I was the one who was afraid. I was so scared to lose you.

[...But now he doesn't have a choice, does he...there's not even a spark of hope in his eyes.]

...I won't contact you again, I swear, I'll—I'll move across the country if you'll feel safe from me that way. I'm sorry I misled you.

[Who would want to be with someone who gets hungry at the scent of their blood?]

[ a vampire. that makes sense. of course he'd be bothered with a mere papercut.

izumi mulls over this as he continues to watch sandalphon beneath him, gaze unreadable. of course he should be scared for his life right now, since sandalphon might snap at any moment, and yet... ]

...I told you that I want you to get well, right?

h[ e doesn't know what came over him, but he presses his nicked finger to his boyfriend's lips, as if daring him to. ]

Then live off me, if you want.

[Sandalphon's pupils blow wide open at the scent of blood again, and his mouth slowly falls open, as though it's against his will.

He's in possession of enough of his faculties to speak one last time, though, one more chance for Izumi to see reason.]

...I...could hurt you. I wouldn't try to, and I wouldn't mean to, but I...I'm so hungry...

[He really might drain him dry. The look in his eyes is downright feral right now—there's food right in front of him, willingly offering itself.]

I want to live with you, but not off of you...!

[One last attempt to resist. He owes Izumi at least this much. He doesn't know what he's offering. He's a model, how could he have that kind of career if he had bite marks plastered all over his neck? How is he supposed to stay healthy if he's losing his blood every now and again? Sandalphon isn't worth all that, he'd never be worth Izumi's health or his livelihood—

—But he's so, so hungry. And his lucid mind is fighting a losing battle against his instinct to survive.]

If you're aware of that, then I know you wouldn't go too far. I trust you.

[ sandalphon's exercised so much restraint at this point that it's pitiable. izumi wants him to relieve him of all that, even if it means feeding off of him. he did buy enough beauty products to hide the marks from his neck, and he could just change around his diet if he needs to recover some blood in his system.

it's easier said than done, but... izumi will take care of it. he always will.

he grasps sandalphon's hand, and places it on his own thigh. it's now or never. ]

...If you love me, you'll do it. I'm doing this much because I love you too, so...

[ please live. ]

[Sandalphon thinks, with the last of his reason, that it should at least be somewhere less visible than the neck. His eyes follow Izumi's hand when he places it on his thigh, and with the last of his strength, he hauls himself up and flips Izumi onto his back, looming over him. His neck is more inviting than anything, but Sandalphon lowers his head and positions himself between Izumi's legs, breath puffing out against the tender flesh of his inner thigh. Were he possessed of all his faculties, he'd be too embarrassed to do it here, but he doesn't hesitate for a moment to sink his fangs into him, puncturing the skin.

The taste of blood is something he's been craving for so long, even low-quality blood would taste like heaven. But Izumi's is top-notch—a healthy body means healthy blood, and Sandalphon also discovers, much to his delight, that Izumi's blood type is also the one he favors the most.

Both as a couple and as a vampire and his blood bank, it seems they're perfectly compatible.

Sandalphon greedily swallows Izumi's blood by the mouthful, practically brought to tears by how good he tastes after enduring his hunger pains for so long. Any stray drops that escape are quickly lapped up, and once Sandalphon's had his fill he continues to lave his tongue over the puncture marks he left behind, cleaning up any smears of blood left behind and staunching the flow of any more than necessary.

He's already starting to look and feel better, too.]

...I love you...I...thank you so much...thank you...

[More delicate licks along Izumi's inner thigh. By now he's definitely more cognizant of where he actually is, but he can't very well let Izumi bleed all over his sheets, can he?]

...Are you alright?

[ izumi had no time to react once sandalphon's found the energy to pin him down on the bed, closing his eyes as he waits for his boyfriend's sharp teeth on close in on his neck-- but it didn't come. instead sandalphon surprised him by going for his legs instead, and izumi grasps at sandalphon's hair as the latter sustained himself. it hurt, of course, but he's not gonna lie -- it wasn't as bad as he thought he was, and without realizing it he lets out a couple of muffled moans as sandalphon licked and sucked at one of his more erogenous zones.

by the time sandalphon's had his fill, izumi looks like a mess at the end of it. flushed cheeks, slightly trembling body, a telltale tent between his legs -- he didn't think that he was a complete masochist himself, and yet... ]

Don't just... take me by surprise like that... [ he pants. ] I'll be fine, just-- give me a moment.

[ hah, he's so weak. ]

[Sandalphon continues to lap at the small beads of blood that ooze from Izumi's bite, slower and slower until they come to a stop—and when they do, he finally raises his head and gets a good look at the state Izumi's in. Now that he's had a chance to eat, he's less pale—but he's much less pale as he blushes as fiercely as an undead creature can.

He glances from the tent in Izumi's pants to his face and back again, then slips a fingertip underneath the waistband of his shorts.]

...Let me take care of this for you. As a thanks for feeding me...or maybe just because I love you.

[The truth is, he's overwhelmed with affection right now. He'd been so prepared for Izumi to react with understandable fear, rejecting him, but to be so accepting...and to even be aroused after the fact, it's all like a dream to Sandalphon. After mentally preparing himself for loneliness, Izumi staying by him, even if only just for a feeding, is making him fall in love all over again, eager to return the feeling tenfold.]

I promise I won't bite.

[Bold words coming from someone who just bit him.]

[ very bold words indeed. despite having his life sucked out of him for a moment there, izumi manages a rather coquettish smile as he hooks his thumbs at the waistband of his shorts and underwear, pulling them down to reveal his hardening cock. ]

You're still hungry, aren't you...?

[ ahh, he's slowly starting to lose it. he could've sworn his heart grew twice just now at how ravenous sandalphon's being, but maybe it's the result of the blood flowing from his head and down to his dick. he's not complaining, though.

his hand ruffles at sandalphon's hard, fingers sliding down to cup his cheek. he wipes the stray drop of blood from the edge of his lover's mouth with his thumb, cooing in a low, soft voice. ]

If you do it gently, I'll let you bite me somewhere else.

[ his neck, for instance. ]

[It's true Sandalphon hasn't completely filled his stomach out of concern for Izumi, but he'd suck his dick even if he had eaten as much as he wanted...

...Still, the lilting, teasing tone of Izumi's voice always plays him like a fiddle, and this time is no exception. He swallows hard and licks his lips, eyes focused on Izumi's cock.]

Then, pardon me...

[First thing to do is get him hard; he trails long, slow licks up the shaft, gently circling the tip with his tongue, darting back down to suck on his balls—and once he's fully erect, Sandalphon carefully takes hold of Izumi's hips, one arm carefully supporting each thigh, and leans down to take his length into his mouth, swallowing as much of it as he can. He feels the tip hit the back of his throat and pauses, pulls his head back; he needs a little bit of loosening up himself before he can properly deepthroat him the way he deserves.

But that doesn't mean he's not trying to make Izumi feel good—while he's taking the time to angle his throat and widen it in preparation, he's running his tongue all along the underside of Izumi's dick as he bobs his head, moving quickly but carefully; the last thing he wants to do is bite him, after all.]

[ it doesn't take long for izumi to get fully hard; a stuttering sigh leaves his throat as sandalphon swallows him whole, as if this is what he wanted sandalphon's mouth to be doing all this time. except no, this is not enough, and since sandalphon's secret is now out it'll never be enough.

he lies back down on the bed, the urge to cover his face rising up once more as sandalphon works his talented mouth on him, but he manages to fight down the bashfulness and opts to look down on him instead.

ah. ]

You're so... beautiful...

[ usually it's sandalphon who'd pepper him with praise regarding his ethereal appearance, but izumi can't help but comment anyway, face even redder than usual as he lightly tugs at sandalphon's hair. he never would've thought a true-to-life vampire is going to suck him off, and yet here it is, and it's all so exhilarating.

but overall, he's just happy and relieved that sandalphon's all right now. they can get through this. ]

[Sandalphon's cheeks color slightly pink at the compliment, and if he weren't so focused on sucking his boyfriend's dick, he'd certainly have a bashful look on his face. But in lieu of showing Izumi his embarrassed expression, Sandalphon opts to thank him by taking him all the way down his throat, holding the position just long enough for Izumi to feel him swallowing around the shaft, before pulling away to caress the head of his cock with his tongue. He'd been eager for the taste of blood earlier, but now he's craving this taste instead—so much that he's desperate for it, deepthroating Izumi's cock with the same starved demeanor as when he had been sucking his blood.

He wants to tell Izumi he's beautiful too, but it's hard to do that with a dick in his mouth, so he'll do what he can to meet Izumi's loving gaze.]

( catchall ) even now i still dream of you

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