yanderebitchclub | ( catchall ) even now i still dream of you

[ oh, this is different. izumi blinks, surprised, and turns to face his submissive. sandalphon finding his own voice when it comes to new kinks and blushing in the process is really cute though, and izumi would like to keep that look to himself for the rest of his days.

but anyway - ]

That depends if I can pull it off. I have my limits, in case you've somehow forgotten already.

[ because... you know, he's not human. just getting it out there, in case sandalphon wanted to do some extreme stuff that only primals can pull off. he's smiling cheekily, urging him to go on. ]

Well? What is it?

What exactly do you think I'm trying to ask you for...?

[UGH. Stupid Izumi and his stupid grins, and curse his stupid heart for doing backflips every time it happens.]

...Don't answer that. But it's something that I know you can do. It's really only a matter of whether or not you will.

[He's been waffling on this idea for a long time, too, after all. But ever since it occurred to him, the more he thinks about it...being at Izumi's mercy, all of his own volition...having every ounce of his attention hyper-focused on him and him alone...trying to move on from a traumatic experience by recontextualizing it is nice, too, but he wants this. He really, truly...]

I want you to tie me up.

...What?

[ and it all comes back to izumi; that empty room where he tied sandalphon up elaborately, convincing him to start calling his dominant by name, only to be rejected and sobbing on his body upon reaching their simultaneous climax. of course izumi was traumatized from all that, given how he wasn't himself at the time, but he was still being his usual bastard self anyway, right? ]

Are you insane?! What, did you already forget what happened between us back then just like that? Why would you want me to put you through something like that again?

[ he can't... he can't do that to sandalphon again. not that they've come this far in this relationship, when they've already declared their feelings for one another. izumi knows he's just going to hurt him emotionally again, not physically, and... ]

I don't... want you to see me like that again.

[Sandalphon grimaces. He'd considered the possibility of Izumi reacting like this, of course...and he's well within his rights to. They were both hurt by what happened that day.]

...I understand how you feel, but...

[Though maybe that's presumptuous of him to say.]

...I haven't forgotten. That's actually one of the reasons I asked. I said things to you that you didn't deserve to hear...I couldn't understand your feelings. I didn't want to. But things are different now, and...

[He reaches over to take Izumi's hand, squeezing it gently.]

...If you're really that opposed, I won't ask again, but I want to redo it. When I leave...I don't want to have any regrets about our relationship. And as it is right now, I...regret the way I spoke to you.

[He loves Izumi so much. Even the unpleasant, possessive, overly critical part of him.]

I think you regret it, too, don't you? So...I trust you, Izumi. That's why I'm asking.

[ his heart clenches at sandalphon's words, his feelings of remorse. the memory of that particular time in the fort still weighs heavy on izumi's shoulders to this day, but what's another burden to carry on top of the baggage he already has back home? ]

...I don't want to have any regrets about us either. [ he intertwines his hand with his, sighing. ] I didn't know what had gotten into me back there. I thought you can handle anything I throw you since you kept saying you're a beast, but... I guess even people like you have limits.

But... I guess I do want to give it another try. Properly this time. I'm honored that you trust me this much after what happened, and I don't want it to go to waste.

[ he leans in for a short kiss, and when he pulls away his expression looks serious. ]

On only one condition, though. You have to tell me when it gets too much for you. I don't give a shit if you're inhuman or not, because I probably won't hold back like last time. [ he cracks a smile. ] You remember our safeword, do you?

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[Sandalphon scowls. He remembers, alright. He wonders if they should change it to something else, but on the other hand, there's nothing that turns him off more than thinking about...]

Belial, wasn't it?

[Well, it's fine. He doesn't plan on using it anyway.]

My breaking point, you'll find, is different when it's something I want. Last time, I wanted nothing to do with it, but this time...truthfully, it's consumed my thoughts for the past several days.

[Though he doesn't go into detail; it might be coming on too strong to elaborate how often and how vividly he's been fantasizing about Izumi tying him up.]

If it becomes a problem, I'll tell you right away...but don't hold back, either. And, uh...I'll do my best not to break the ropes.

[Because as far as he's aware, normal ropes are all Izumi has on hand.]

...One day, you're gonna have to explain who that guy is to me.

[ is it his ex? a bitter rival? whoever that is must really turn sandalphon off immensely. hopefully it won't come to that, since izumi wants to make it work this time. ]

Oh, but don't worry. You won't be able to break out of it, even if you wanted to.

[ there's that smile again. he leans in to give a quick kiss to his boyfriend before turning around. ]

I'll go get what we need. Take off everything except your underwear. [ and there he goes, walking a little faster than usual to the closet out of sheer excitement. ]

What is that supposed to mean...?

[But Izumi's already too far out the door to hear him, and Sandalphon doubts he'd answer anyway. Which leaves him alone in the meantime.

He strips obediently, frowning slightly at his plain and extremely tame undergarments. These are what he always wears, and there's nothing wrong with them, per se...

...But isn't this a special occasion? Not that that means something different than usual is required, but it'd make Izumi happy to see him wearing some of the fancier, frillier things he'd bought him, wouldn't it?

He's not really sure if stockings count as undergarments, but the great thing about garters is if they don't, all he has to do is unhook them and off they go. So he quickly slips into something black and lacy, fumbling a bit with the garters—and then waits expectantly for Izumi to return.

Should he do something in particular with his legs...? In the end he just settles for sitting like a normal person. Sorry, Izumi, the arts of seduction are still something he's working on.]

[ it doesn't take izumi long to get what he needs for this session, but nothing can prepare him for what's waiting in the room upon walking back. he could've dropped his box of tools and everything, but he doesn't. instead he's almost frozen in place on the doorway, blinking in surprise as he takes in sandalphon and the garters and the stockings he's wearing on his unfairly beautiful legs... ]

I-I said to take everything off, didn't I?

[ he's gone red in the face as he puts down the box of materials, fishing out a long coil of unassuming red rope and approaching sandalphon with a oddly gentle smile.

all too gentle. ]

Well, I should tell you this before we get started - this is no ordinary rope. Stand up.

[ because the moment where he drapes the rope around his submissive's neck and loops it around his back, sandalphon would feel a wave of sluggishness washing over him as his powers temporarily weaken in this state. izumi stops here before he can proceed, to make sure sandalphon would still be okay with this. ]

I thought you'd like it if I wore something like this. But if it bothers you so much, you can take them off yourself.

[That wasn't even remotely the plan, but he can't resist the urge to be contrarian, and...well, that's actually not a bad idea, now that it's too late to take back. Either way, Sandalphon will enjoy it.

He does flinch in alarm as he feels his powers recede; he's only ever felt this weak once, in the fort, and it's not something he ever expected to feel again. He takes hold of one of the ends of the rope and pulls hard; rather than snapping easily, the way it normally would, he finds it too difficult to even fray.]

...For all your earlier yelling, having something like this means you've been thinking about this too, doesn't it?

[He's...a little surprised about how happy that makes him. He can't help but smile, dangerous anticipation in his eyes as he drops the end of the rope.]

I'm in your hands, Izumi. I trust you'll be careful with me.

[He trusts him with everything.]

[ being entrusted with something like this with a being of such high stature - it's a great honor that izumi might not experience again in another lifetime. ]

...Thank you.

[ he leans in for a kiss, strangely sweet amongst the rope and garterbelts, and when he pulls away his expression turns serious. ] ] Remember to say "red" if you're feeling any discomfort.

[ and now he gets to work. sandalphon may not be able to see this from this angle much, but izumi's gotten good in knot-tying since that incident; transforming what seemed to be a magical if ordinary rope into a piece of art around his submissive's body. despite telling him earlier if he's doing fine, izumi asks every now and again how he's feeling, if the ropes are too tight around his crotch and thighs in particular, if he's feeling any rope burn, and so on.

it takes a while, but at least izumi can pull away after tying the last few intricate knots at sandalphon's back, and now it's finished. his eyes roam all around his sandalphon's body, both in sheer admiration and in hunger. ]

Well? What do you think?

[ he can't wait to take a bite out of him. ]

[Now that the circumstances are different—consensual, for starters, and even though Izumi was careful enough at the fort, there's a gentleness that had been absent from it then that's here now—it's nicer than Sandalphon had expected. He'd been initially a bit nervous at the feeling of restraint, but Izumi asking him if he was alright every few minutes quickly assuaged any remaining sense of uncertainty.

He tries to separate his hands, just to confirm the rope is working, and it holds him fast; it's slack enough not to hurt, but tight enough to completely restrict his movement.]

...I wasn't sure what to expect, but...

[He has to be as affirming as possible; this was his idea, so he has to do what he can to ensure it all goes well, and that means being more open than usual.]

...It's striking to see, and...it's always...

[He's blushing a bit, he's not used to being this up-front about his feelings.]

...I always like it when you touch me, so being tied like this...was very pleasant...

[He's already a little aroused just from the gentle whispers and touches Izumi had naturally had to do to tie him up, confirming that while he isn't sure if he's Officially Into This yet, he's at least into it enough that it'll still get him going.]

[ it is very striking to see, especially in izumi's point of view. sandalphon was right when he said that izumi wanted to do this again, because izumi really had been imagining it for a while now - how it could've been if they weren't afflicted with some drug that addled their minds. now, they're doing this because they want to, and not because they have to. ]

I'm glad to hear that.

[ he really is, and it's a good thing sandalphon couldn't see him blush from here. ]

It only needs one last thing, so - heads up.

[ he'd attached another long coil of rope at the spine of sandalphon's back, and with a mighty pull, he manages to hoist sandalphon up to his knees like a pulley. don't ask when izumi had installed a metal ring on the ceiling for this specific purpose. ]

There we go. [ izumi's hands gently roam around the back of sandalphon's thighs, teasing him. ] Do you still want to go on?

[ not like sandalphon could break out if he tried anyway. ]

Huh—

[Sandalphon wasn't expecting to be hoisted up, and to say it's surprising is an understatement. He gives a long, pensive stare at the rope holding him up, but it really is well-made; it doesn't look like it's going to give, so he relaxes a little, trying to sneak a look at Izumi's face. It's always the legs with him...well, Sandalphon doesn't mind at all, though. It's kind of nice knowing there's something about him that Izumi likes that much.]

...Yes. I want to make this everything you wanted it to be.

[And if that means getting hung from the ceiling, that's what he'll do.]

( catchall ) even now i still dream of you

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