yanderebitchclub | ( catchall ) even now i still dream of you

[ izumi's completely passed out from last night, though no one would really blame him but himself for going all out as usual - sandalphon was eager in a different way, had even taken charge at one point, but he'd exercised enough restraint not to temporarily disable izumi from walking like last time.

still, the bruises accompanied with a delicious ache in his hips are still there, and unlike sandalphon it'd take izumi a few days for his porcelain skin to go back to the way it was. not like he'd ever complain, since it'll always bring him back to the night before, and there's always makeup for the meantime.

so yes, izumi's that exhausted, too wrapped up in dreamland to hear sandalphon's whispering or the fact that the bed's covered in multicolored feathers from too much activity yesterday. he's usually a morning person but he badly needs more beauty sleep... yet he inches closer to sandalphon subconsciously, also seeking for the other's warmth with a soft exhale and a smile. let him sleep in just this once, please... ♪ ]

Edited 2019-04-11 12:15 (UTC)

[Sandalphon's heart skips a beat, his core buzzes in a way it hasn't since—

No. Best not to think about that.

He gently, slowly moves his hand down to Izumi's cheek, hesitates, and pulls it back without touching him. He wants to, in this moment, but if he's still sleeping like a log at this hour, he probably needs the rest. Sandalphon and he put each other through their paces last night; the scattered feathers, mottled patches of bruised skin and mess of blankets are all a testament to that. So if he's still tired, it's Sandalphon's fault.]

Izumi...

[He murmurs at that same barely audible volume.]

...When...did you become this endearing...? When did I...

[When did he become so fond of him?

...The lazy warmth of their shared bed isn't the place to have such complicated thoughts; he can feel himself giving into the temptation of just five more minutes already, so he sits up, yawns, stretches his wings and immediately regrets it, the bites and scrapes Izumi left between them throbbing as they're tugged on. Still, it's enough to jolt him just a little further awake.

He may as well make some coffee now that he's up, but he leans down to brush his lips against Izumi's, just for a moment.

Somehow, it seems like the right thing to do.]

[ sandalphon pulling himself and his warmth away did stir izumi a little, but the kiss did its trick and izumi's eyes flutter open, blue meeting red. the memory of what happened last night hits him like a truck but in a good way, judging from how quick he tugs at sandalphon's wrist, urging him to come back down to lie with him again. ]

Mm, still too early...

[ sandalphon's usually the first person to wake up for his daily coffee fix, with izumi following right after like the cursed morning persons that they are, but for once izumi's feeling lazy. last night had felt so good that he doesn't want to pop that bubble and face the day just yet.

...it's the weekend anyway. surely sandalphon doesn't have a shift today when he went all out on izumi just a few hours ago. ]

I can't walk again, you know. ♪ [ he's lying... probably. even now he still can't resist teasing the primal, finding his reactions cute as always because ultimately he just wants sandalphon to - ] Stay with me.

Edited 2019-04-12 02:30 (UTC)

[Worry immediately seizes Sandalphon's features.]

Seriously? I was careful this time, I was sure I...

[He trails off as he realizes Izumi's just teasing him, or at least, he thinks he is—there's no pain or irritation in his voice. He sighs and settles back down next to him, fixing him with a flat look.]

...You don't need to make up an excuse for me to stay with you.

[He grumbles it, like it's something he isn't really quite ready to admit, slipping an arm around Izumi's waist and pulling him closer.]

[ heehee, another small victory for izumi and his spoiled ass. he lets himself be pulled closer by sandalphon, a hand reaching up to retrieve an orange feather from his hair. ]

I know. I just wanted to see that look on your face.

[ his smile is soft and cheeky as he flicks the feather away, snuggling up to sandalphon to place a kiss on his lower jaw. ]

Because you don't look that bad, I guess. [ there's something about sandalphon with even more unruly hair than usual that causes izumi's heart to swell a bit every time. ] But also, you don't have to be careful around me all the time. I can take on whatever you can give me.

[ catch him complain anyway, though. but he's certainly not in a grumpy mood right now, so there's that. ]

Edited 2019-04-12 08:35 (UTC)

If I went as hard as I wanted to last night, you really wouldn't be able to walk.

[That...sounds WAY nastier out loud than it did in his head, and he flushes at his own words.]

...It's just a matter of figuring out exactly where your limits are. Once I know, I won't have to be so cautious.

[That doesn't sound much better. Why are they talking about this?]

Anyway. I don't have a shift today, and I happen to be in a good mood, so you chose a good time to be so clingy all of a sudden. You should really be thanking me for all of this.

[Perfect deflection...? Well, probably not, so he'll press a kiss to Izumi's forehead.

Just so he knows it's all in jest, of course.]

[ he really didn't have to say all that out loud?! izumi can only pout at him with flushed cheeks, the kiss on the forehead calming him down yet sending his heart into overdrive even if it's only in jest...

ah, he's really got it bad for his own submissive, hasn't he? especially when sandalphon's in a good mood. it's a nice look on him. ]

How should I thank you, then? [ for last night, for everything. ] You've already had your fill with me, haven't you?

[ in one ways than one... he hopes that isn't the case though; he doesn't ever want sandalphon to be bored of him, for he is only human.

and look, as much as it's tempting to go for another round right now, izumi would rather sling his arms over sandalphon's shoulders and pull him in ever closer for more sleepy cuddles - just simple things like that. ]

Edited 2019-04-13 08:52 (UTC)

[If he'd had enough of Izumi, he wouldn't still be here. It's a simple enough phrase to say, but he hesitates anyway; it seems like something he won't be able to take back, once he admits that he likes spending time with him that much.

For now, he lets Izumi pull him closer, nuzzling against him. He's so warm...Sandalphon's never been wrapped up in so much comfort before. Everything from his scent to the lilting sound of his voice seems like home to him, in a way that he hasn't felt in millennia. It's different from the way being on the Grandcypher feels, in ways he's deliberately choosing not to think about. Because the only other person he's ever wanted to get so close to, to share a space so intimately with, is...]

Have coffee with me later today. After you get up.

[That's not really any different from their normal routine, so does that really qualify as thanks?

...Well, it's fine. Sandalphon's always grateful for the time Izumi spends with him, so it will do.]

We do that every morning, though?

[ because izumi doesn't eat breakfast without a cup of freshly-brewed coffee made by sandalphon, really. despite every curveball LIEs throws at them to make things uncomfortable for everyone involved, it's nice to find some sort of solace at their shared home, being able to do all these homey things before heading out... with sandalphon of all people.

izumi breathes in the faint scent of coffee that the other always has, pressing himself to him even closer. ahh, it's not normal of him to feel this lazy, but - ]

Mmm... Later, later. I just want...

[ why is it so hard to say that he wants sandalphon more than everything right now? he shouldn't rely on actions over words this often, yet he's leaning in to place a kiss right on sandalphon's neck, leaving a trail of them up his jaw until he reaches the corner of his mouth. pay more attention to him, come on... ♪ ]

[Sandalphon laughs quietly, a fond smile on his face. So he wanted a particular answer to that question, did he...? He's still not very good at navigating this relationship of theirs—he's not even sure if there's a word for it, really, because he can't say that his feelings stop at simply being Izumi's Submissive. But at the same time, it's never occurred to him for an instant that Izumi might have similar feelings for him.

He's better about making friends, but millennia of hating yourself still takes time to completely work through, after all.

Still, he puts a hand under Izumi's chin to tilt his face up slightly, just enough to make it a little easier to kiss him. If this is what Izumi wants, he's more than happy to oblige.

When this contract was first put in place, Sandalphon had imagined they'd only kiss enough to get things done, but lately, he hasn't been able to get enough of it. And this time is no exception; he's just barely pulled away from Izumi's lips before leaning back in to claim them again.]

[ it's not as though izumi's an expert in all of this either... with all his constant gushing over makoto and wanting to date him, he's never allowed that luxury upon becoming an idol because of various controversies that might pop up, and he's already problematic as it is with that one stunt he'd pulled. it's something that he can never forgive himself for, so knowing that sandalphon knows where he's coming from is comforting, in a way that only they'd understand.

it's a little scary, actually, to think about falling for someone else when he already has a couple of guys in mind, but there's something about staying by sandalphon's side that makes him feel quite at ease with the world. their contract shouldn't be more than being his dominant, yet his heart overflows at being kissed over and over by him, like right now. izumi reaches up to cup sandalphon's cheeks as he deepens the kiss just a tiny bit, murmuring against his mouth, tongue brushing against his languidly...

ah, he could really get lost in this. usually their makeout sessions would turn steamy before they take it it much further, but for now he'll settle for something simpler, things that make his toes curl in immense affection. ]

[He's never thought to use the word to describe someone else before, but Izumi is being so...cute, right now. Usually, when he's got his Dominant's tongue in his mouth, Sandalphon's thoughts are already wandering to what's going to come after, but now he's focused on how soft Izumi's lips are, how warm he is beside him, and it's the most contentment he's felt in a long time. It would be easy enough to roll Izumi onto his back and add a few more blemishes to the spots on his neck as he takes this as far as it usually goes, but for once, Sandalphon doesn't have any desire to do that.

He just...wants Izumi close like this, wants to kiss him, wants to dote on him a bit and maybe be doted on in return. It's such a terrifying thought, but even that's dulled by the feeling of Izumi pressed up against him like this.

He pulls away to say something, anything at all to express how happy he is in this moment, but...in the end, he swallows his words before leaning in for another kiss, running his fingers through Izumi's hair and sighing in contentment against his perfect lips. This is his way of being thanked, after all, isn't it? So it would be rude not to kiss him until he's satisfied...

...Though it seems like that might take a while, because every kiss only makes him want to kiss him again.]

[ it is terrifying, to let someone else inside his heart after being tethered to other boys already, but izumi doesn't want to think too deeply about that right now. rather, he'd like to think about how unimaginably adorable sandalphon is being right now, his eager kisses only making izumi crave for more and more, and he returns them with the same enthusiasm and soft chuckles dotting their makeout.

however, as much as he'd like to stay in bed for a little longer, izumi still has things to do, and he'd rather not hinder sandalphon from his usual morning routine either. so he pulls away, only to caress his submissive's face with the back of his hand. he's... rather handsome like this, isn't he? ]

Mm, what's with you all of a sudden... You really like kissing me that much?

[ because izumi can't get enough of it either. ah, be still his overflowing heart. sandalphon may not die from this easily but izumi might, his cheeks already hurting from too much smiling and sap. ]

Go get the coffee ready. Need to freshen up first.

Edited 2019-04-21 10:55 (UTC)

[Sandalphon's visibly disappointed when Izumi pulls away, though it rapidly shifts to indignation when Izumi speaks.]

Nonsense. You were enjoying yourself, and like I said, I'm in a good mood. I thought I'd indulge you.

[Never mind he's technically the one who kissed Izumi first by waking him up with one. This is...it's all Izumi's fault.

He glances at his Dominant as he sits up, frowning a bit. He knows what Izumi means, but...there's a deeply selfish part of him that loves seeing him like this, disheveled hair and groggy eyes, wearing only a pair of sweatpants. Because this isn't a part of him that most people will ever see. All they'll know is Izumi at his absolute maximum effort to be beautiful, and he certainly is, there's no doubting that.

But Sandalphon quietly thinks to himself that he doesn't need to try so hard at all. He's so lovely, even when he's barely awake and a mess from a night of rough, unapologetic sex.]

...There's a new blend I've been meaning to have you try, so I look forward to your opinion.

[But he's just going to talk about coffee instead. Coffee is safer, and it's fine if he's smiling a little wider than usual because Izumi can't prove that's not what he's thinking about.]

[ this is way too indulgent though, and sandalphon's bright smile is making izumi feel a certain kind of way that's almost like downing a fresh cup of coffee in one go - warm and energizing. maybe primal beasts have that kind of effect on mere humans like him?

...no, that's probably not it. it's so rare to see sandalphon this content and happy that izumi wants to keep this to himself forever, and he'll carry it to his early grave if he has to. does someone like him deserve to see the supreme primarch in such a radiant state, though? he may be his dominant but...

hm, best not to think too hard on it. good vibrations from here on out, like thinking of other ways he could kiss his submissive later. ]

I can't wait to try it then. ♪

[ he's getting better at critiquing coffee, at least. wouldn't want let the caffeine junkie down. but seriously, he desperately needs to clean up, so he sits up on the bed with a yawn, picking up a shirt that may or may not be sandalphon's that was thrown carelessly on the floor when they were about to get it on last night to put in on, and -

should he kiss him before he goes? he takes a moment to squint blearily at sandalphon for a bit before settling a peck on the forehead, and then he heads for the bathroom. ]

Edited 2019-04-22 15:41 (UTC)

[Sandalphon stares after him, feeling a raging blush creep across his cheeks. Why is that, of all things, what makes his heart skip a beat?!

He rolls out of bed, face still flushed, and throws on some clothes, completing the ensemble with one of the hoodies Izumi had let him buy last time they went shopping. This one almost never sees public use, but it's comfortable, and he wears it on days he can stay in fairly often.

After fussing with a comb just enough to get his hair under control, Sandalphon heads for the kitchen to make coffee. He's seen and even gotten the chance to try some of the modern machinery Duplicity has to offer, and he's been generally impressed with the results, but there's something so comforting about doing everything by hand: roasting the beans, grinding them, using an old-fashioned machine with a fuel flame to heat the water. It's a ritual he's done for thousands of years, and all he has left of Lucifer—how could he possibly change his method now?

He hopes Izumi doesn't think of him as stuck in the past for it, but it's just the way he does things.

The beans Sandalphon is using today are a special blend of his own creation; for all his doubts about holding the title of Supreme Primarch, his ability to hasten the growth of trees has proven most helpful. The coffee he's brewing today has a number of dark notes, with a subtly sweet aftertaste; it's more than capable of standing on its own while being robust enough to withstand being used to make a latte without sacrificing the complexity of its flavor.

He created this flavor profile with Izumi in mind, but he's not about to admit it. Maybe he never will. He considers telling him about it for what seems the hundredth time as he watches the coffee percolate, waiting for Izumi to come greet him.]

[ once izumi's escaped into the bathroom, he turns to stare at himself in the mirror, cheeks still rosy-pink and lips kiss-swollen from all that kissing earlier. he tugs at the collar of the shirt he so haphazardly put on and - yep, those sure are bites and bruises courtesy of his own submissive last night. it's a little annoying how sandalphon can just make any blemish on his body disappear in a flash while izumi has to make do with makeup... but he doesn't really have any concrete plans today, strangely enough. there's ballet practice, for one, but he supposes he can save that for tomorrow.

he just... wants to be with sandalphon today - nothing more, nothing less. seems that the other man's refreshing mood has gotten a hold of him as well, judging from how he showers while humming an entirely new tune to himself, how he takes even more extra care in washing his face, picking out something cozy to wear (and settling for a simple black shirt), combing his hair... doing all he can to look as presentable as possible for the supreme primarch. he still has to live up to sandalphon's standards after all, no matter how awfully simplistic the guy can be.

the rich scent of freshly-brewed coffee hits izumi's nose as soon as he comes out of his (their?) bedroom; he's already heading for the kitchen anyway, but the smell is luring him to sandalphon, quietly sneaking up behind him to wrap his arms gently around his waist. he should've asked if he could watch him make coffee by hand as he always does, since the traditional method has always piqued his interest, and the methodical way sandalphon does it is calming in its own way.

but anyway, he'll nuzzle into the crook of the other's neck and breathe in some more of that lush scent. good morning. ]

...Is that all for me? [ already he's thinking of what food he'll pair it up with for breakfast, but he'll need to taste it first. ]

[Sandalphon can't return the embrace if Izumi's behind him, but he can reach up to fondly tousle his hair, at the very least.]

If you want it all.

[He's already tried it himself, and it's not like he can't just make more if he wants to, after all.]

Let me know if you want me to do anything special with it after you've tasted it. I'm quite pleased with it, myself...so I'm eager to hear what you think.

[He's gotten pretty good at making lattes and macchiatos, though he'll still always prefer a cup of black coffee.]

[ he's that excited, isn't he... of course izumi's gonna want it all and more; he's greedy and selfish that way, and today he's feeling more of it than usual. he takes the cup with both hands and raises it to his lips, inhaling the wonderful scent first before closing his eyes and taking his first sip.

...oh. normally he'd have something to add after he's tasted anything sandalphon's made, little suggestions on how to improve the flavor, but right now he's speechless. all he can do is take another sip, carefully to avoid burning his tongue, and turns his attention to his Submissive. ]

...It's perfect.

[ not too sweet, and the bitterness is just excellent. izumi wishes he could offer something better to say than that, but he licks his lips as he drinks again, a warm smile on his face. ]

Are you going to make this at work? [ because everyone has got to try this out, obviously. ]

[Sandalphon can't help it; as soon as he sees Izumi smiling, he smiles himself, fondness and relief apparent in his expression. It had been a lot of work to narrow Izumi's tastes down without outright asking him, and to see that look on his face makes it worth every ounce of effort.]

I thought about it. But...

[He hesitates, unable to say what he wants to—that this was only ever meant for Izumi, that it's something intensely personal—but he doesn't know how to say that and convey how meaningful it really is. Drinking coffee with someone is the first way he ever learned how to express love, after all, and...

...He doesn't...want to give Izumi the wrong idea.

That's it.]

...I'd like to keep it private just a bit longer. I'm entertaining the idea of finding a Dominant to help me start my own business, and it's my understanding that exclusivity breeds success. Though I've still got plenty of work to do before that becomes reality...

[Sandalphon reaches out to stroke Izumi's cheek. He really is so beautiful...it makes his chest ache during quiet moments like this.]

...But I'm glad you like it.

[ ah, that smile... it really is too bad izumi's only mortal, because he'd level mountains for that look on sandalphon's face. it's like downing an entire cup of coffee in one go, the warmth spreading all throughout his body, and he leans his cheek on sandalphon's hand almost on instinct. ]

You can just consult me, you know. But I guess you'd need more than me to set up your own cafe in this place...

[ he really doesn't want to share sandalphon with anyone, though. hopefully he'd only seek out another Dominant for financial purposes and only that. ]

Of course, this blend needs some more improvements. Just because you've gotten it right the first time, it doesn't mean that you should stop there. [ a perfectionist as always. ] It's already delicious though, so maybe you don't have to add more into it.

[ he takes another sip and puts it down on the counter, looking back at sandalphon with a smile that's a little too cheeky. ]

I can only think of one person I'd share this with, anyway. [ and then he leans in for a kiss, soft and sweet. he is pretty serious about looking for different ways to kiss his Submissive, so here's one that'll definitely jolt him up for the morning. ]

[Sandalphon returns the kiss, thankful that such close proximity to his face means Izumi won't be able to see just how much he's blushing. Beaten to his own line, when he's the one who'd only wanted to share it with Izumi in the first place...now even if he does say it, it's just going to look like he copied him.

It's a relief, in some sense, but disappointing in another.]

Mm...I knew it'd taste perfect on your lips.

[It's a thought that he accidentally blurts aloud, but it's too late to take it back now.

Seems like Izumi's going to see him blushing after all, seeing as he's embarrassed by his own words.]

[ izumi does go pink in the face for one sec, but to prevent himself from going all gaga over this, he's just going to tease his submissive further. ]

Mm? What did you just say? Did you really make this for me?

[ because it really is such an honor. he wraps his arms around sandalphon's waist, pulling himself closer to him with an all-too knowing grin. or a shit-eating one, whichever. ]

You could've just said so, you know. It's not that embarrassing, Sanchan~.

[ yet he's bullying him about it anyway... the cup is right there, just dump it all over his head if he goes too far. ]

[Oh, he's considering it. He tenses up as Izumi sidles up next to him, determined not to show any weakness. Even if it's really nice being so close to him...]

It's the first time I've ever...made a blend with someone in particular in mind. That's it.

[That's technically not true; he's been working on one for Lucifer for a while, but it's taking a lot more fine-tuning, since the former supreme primarch has a far more discerning palate for coffee...

And, well, it's lonely, knowing he'll never be able to taste it.]

I'm not embarrassed. I would've been if you didn't like it, but fortunately, you're predictable.

[He says, embarrassed.]

Who are you calling predictable...

[ he's pouting a little. it's not like he takes offense to that, but that's almost synonymous to boring and izumi can't accept that.

but his pout quickly crumbles into a faint smile, so no worries. this is sandalphon's first time, huh. ]

It's fine. I love everything you create anyway.

[ ah, the L word. it's a little unfair how it's easier to admit that he loves something more than someone, but he's working on it. ]

( catchall ) even now i still dream of you

oh my god i forgot how soft his smiling icons are... cute

hes so....Softe

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