yanderebitchclub | ( catchall ) even now i still dream of you

[Sandalphon wasn't sure what he expected, but finding out Izumi's tongue is just as scratchy as a regular cat's is...well, all he really knows for now is he doesn't hate it. And he'll have plenty of opportunities to get used to it, besides, if this budding relationship of theirs stays solid.

His first instinct is to apologize again for...well, anything, really, or to say that Izumi doesn't need to, but he does worry about beginning an insecurity feedback loop. Lord knows he's not the most confident of people and he knows Izumi struggles too, for all that he projects an immovable personality. So although there are plenty of things he'd like to apologize for...for being haughty when he had no money, for making things awkward, for cheapening his first kiss like that...

...Though that last one in particular does still clutch at his heart, he puts them out of his mind for now. They can come later, when Izumi isn't so close to him, when he's more than mere inches from kissing distance.

For now, the only thing he wants to give Izumi is more kisses, as many as he'll accept from him. He leans back in to capture Izumi's lips once more, already hungry for more, as though he's making up for lost time. How long ago could their relationship have first taken this step? How much time has he wasted on his own insecurities...?

...thinking about that can come later, too. But for now, all Sandalphon wants to think about is Izumi.]

[ izumi doesn't want to disappoint his owner too, especially with how he's trying so hard to kiss as properly as he can, but it's not as though izumi's had some experience either. he's pretty, and could easily settle with anyone who's richer than his current owner if he wanted to, but...

in the end, izumi cares less and less about that as he cares more and more about him. he'd apologize too, for taking this long to realize it, but it seems that sandalphon's not done making up for lost time either. a low purr rumbles from izumi's throat before he pulls away to breathe, a trail of drool connecting their lips together. ]

I... Was this really your first time...?

[ either that or izumi's just that weak. he licks his lips, the subtle taste of coffee shared between them. it's so easy to get lost in one another now, but someone's got to get a grip on reality first before they both really lose it. ]

Mmn...?

[The question is enough to stop Sandalphon for going in for another kiss, at least; the glassy, faraway look in his eyes betrays his desire to do so, though.]

It was. I'm not very social, as you know, so I've just never...am I not any good at this?

[He'll get better, Izumi, he swears,]

I didn't say that.

[ though izumi was a little overwhelmed from all the kissing already... maybe that was just him? ugh, he really has it bad. ]

But I don't get it. You can have any human you meet at work, yet...

[ he opts to just. curl up on sandalphon's lap, making himself comfortable on top of him as he leans his head on his chest, relishing on the fact that he can feel his owner's heart race from here. ]

I don't want any of them. I never have.

[He isn't into women at all, for starters, and the men...honestly, if Lucio's personality weren't Like That, he'd be right in Sandalphon's strike zone. Someone who looks exactly like him, but perhaps a bit more refined and quiet would be...

Well, unfortunately for Lucio, it's too little too late.

Sandalphon holds Izumi close, stroking his hair, rubbing the base of his ears, hoping to draw some more of those lovely purrs out of him.]

I'm just happy to have you. I would be even if you didn't return my feelings.

[Izumi has been an overwhelmingly positive part of his life ever since he stepped into it. He's one of the luckiest men on the planet to be living with him.]

...What about you? I'm sure there are plenty of people who could give you the grand kind of life you deserve.

[It still kills him a little to know that he can't meet Izumi's most refined tastes all the time.]

[ oh, he's scratching izumi's sweet spot, causing him to purr like a nicely working motor. if that doesn't tell sandalphon that he's more than content being here, nothing will.

except... no, izumi's going to tell him anyway because he's a grade-A idiot. ]

...I deserve to be with you. That's what I've come to realize when I came to stay here. Besides, if I get everything I want in a snap, I wouldn't get much satisfaction from it.

[ what's the point if he gets to stay in a lavish mansion without any genuine love whatsoever? no, this is as good at it gets. ]

If... If you'll have me, despite everything I throw at you... I'm happy. You should know that. [ his face is so red, that he's just going to hide his face on sandalphon's chest, shh ]

[Sandalphon feels a lump in his throat that he inwardly begs to not become anything more emotional as he pulls Izumi closer to him. He isn't sure what he's done to deserve this kind of happiness, but he's going to grab hold of it and never let it go.]

Ever since you moved in with me, every day has been the best day of my life.

[Just when he thinks it can't get any better he learns something else about Izumi that only makes Sandalphon love him more. And now...to learn that his feelings are returned...]

I'll do everything I can to make sure that's true for you too.

[He presses a kiss to Izumi's forehead, wanting more but unwilling to wrench himself away from the warmth of his body to do so.]

( catchall ) even now i still dream of you

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