[Like a flash, Six's body moves before his mind catches up with it. Before he realizes what's happening, he's leapt forward to catch Nehan, pinning him to the bed. Seeing Nehan crying makes him want to cry, too—and despite his best efforts, he can feel tears welling up in his own eyes.]
I know exactly how fortunate I've been!
[To this day, he can still feel the warmth of the captain's father's hand as he ruffled his hair, right between his ears. The same warmth carried in the captain's smile whenever they speak to one another. The acceptance of the Eternals. Without those things, he'd have spiraled into the same kind of misery Nehan has been enduring his whole life.]
It's not pity to want that same good fortune for you! I just...
[It's not easy for him to say these things, but there's no point in telling that to Nehan. Because it's still easier than everything he's had to endure so far.]
...Is it wrong for me...to want you to be happy? Is it wrong to want you to find a place where you belong?
[Nehan has been so miserable, all because of him. Six knows it's selfish to hope that the place Nehan belongs has room for him too, but even so...]
Even if I can't do anything to atone...even if nothing that I ever do will be enough...I just...it doesn't have to be because of me, but...!
[He wants Nehan to be happy. More than anything.
Six has lost the fight with his own emotions, and tears are freely falling. Desperate for some way, any way, to convey his feelings when his body is threatening to freeze with anxiety and he can't find any words, he does the only thing he can think of, and leans down to kiss Nehan.
It's a bit forceful, and more than a bit clumsy. He's never kissed anyone before, never so much as entertained the thought—but he needs Nehan to understand. In his forceful, clumsy way, Six cares for him.]
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I know exactly how fortunate I've been!
[To this day, he can still feel the warmth of the captain's father's hand as he ruffled his hair, right between his ears. The same warmth carried in the captain's smile whenever they speak to one another. The acceptance of the Eternals. Without those things, he'd have spiraled into the same kind of misery Nehan has been enduring his whole life.]
It's not pity to want that same good fortune for you! I just...
[It's not easy for him to say these things, but there's no point in telling that to Nehan. Because it's still easier than everything he's had to endure so far.]
...Is it wrong for me...to want you to be happy? Is it wrong to want you to find a place where you belong?
[Nehan has been so miserable, all because of him. Six knows it's selfish to hope that the place Nehan belongs has room for him too, but even so...]
Even if I can't do anything to atone...even if nothing that I ever do will be enough...I just...it doesn't have to be because of me, but...!
[He wants Nehan to be happy. More than anything.
Six has lost the fight with his own emotions, and tears are freely falling. Desperate for some way, any way, to convey his feelings when his body is threatening to freeze with anxiety and he can't find any words, he does the only thing he can think of, and leans down to kiss Nehan.
It's a bit forceful, and more than a bit clumsy. He's never kissed anyone before, never so much as entertained the thought—but he needs Nehan to understand. In his forceful, clumsy way, Six cares for him.]