[ and it all comes back to izumi; that empty room where he tied sandalphon up elaborately, convincing him to start calling his dominant by name, only to be rejected and sobbing on his body upon reaching their simultaneous climax. of course izumi was traumatized from all that, given how he wasn't himself at the time, but he was still being his usual bastard self anyway, right? ]
Are you insane?! What, did you already forget what happened between us back then just like that? Why would you want me to put you through something like that again?
[ he can't... he can't do that to sandalphon again. not that they've come this far in this relationship, when they've already declared their feelings for one another. izumi knows he's just going to hurt him emotionally again, not physically, and... ]
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[ and it all comes back to izumi; that empty room where he tied sandalphon up elaborately, convincing him to start calling his dominant by name, only to be rejected and sobbing on his body upon reaching their simultaneous climax. of course izumi was traumatized from all that, given how he wasn't himself at the time, but he was still being his usual bastard self anyway, right? ]
Are you insane?! What, did you already forget what happened between us back then just like that? Why would you want me to put you through something like that again?
[ he can't... he can't do that to sandalphon again. not that they've come this far in this relationship, when they've already declared their feelings for one another. izumi knows he's just going to hurt him emotionally again, not physically, and... ]
I don't... want you to see me like that again.